My holidays are nearly over... Twelve more days and another academic year will start I hate thinking about this but it just comes back over and over again. The worst part is that I'm actually going to Malinówka for 10 days... and there - without TV and Internet - by brain will have even more time to torture me with the vision of this new year and the upcoming Bachelor of Engineering that I should achieve this year. I'll have to take a lot of books keep myself busy....
Why am I going there? Well, it's actually something like a favor for a local art community - they buy me art materials and I help them find new sponsors by creating some works for them. I'm not satisfied with my art, but I feel better when I can actually make someone happier or, as in this case, help someone. Soo.. I'm not really hopeful... I just need to feel more confident about myself... And there no one will judge what I do and how I do it, because most of the people in this community are unprofessional and they just love what they do even if they suck - how beautiful is that I really need to feel that confident... because now everything is just wrong and I feel sick and tired.
I'm leaving on September 21st and coming back in the end of the month with - I hope - some better attitude.

Lately your support really made my days better... I can't thank you all enough. I'm very, very happy you actually find something interesting in my works... Thank you.

Karolina

I'm going to the mountains tomorrow will be back in 9 days. Just enough time to clear my head of all the things that are bothering me now... I'm hoping to come back with some new energy and inspiration to be able to work harder.
I will be spending first 4 days in Slovak Paradise and another 4 in our polish mountains near Zakopane (city)

See you soon,
Karolina

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"I will follow you
into the cold of daybreak
painted in shades of

midnight blues
and
velvet grays"

by *skerd22 -> [link]

Time passes so quickly, and I just thought it's high time to change this journal... The people who watch me for some time now already know I'm not a journal-kind-of-person I really don't know how to write about the things I'm thinking about. It's seems so hard and very personal to open my mind to people... Every time I sit down to it with a decision that „this time it will be something really meaningful” I always tend to get scared along the way... so.. no more of that I just wait for a right moment – I may come someday.

However, there is one thing I would like to share with you, something that probably most of you already read before – a poem of William Butler Yeats, that really moves my heart right now more than anything else....

"He wishes for the cloths of heaven"

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams.

And a polish version

"Poeta pragnie szaty niebios"

Gdybym miał niebios wyszywaną szatę
Z nici złotego i srebrnego światła,
Ciemną i bladą, i błękitną szatę
Ze światła, mroku, półmroku, półświatła,
Rozpostarłbym ci tę szatę pod stopy,
Lecz biedny jestem: me skarby -- w marzeniach,
Więc ci rzuciłem marzenia pod stopy;
Stapaj ostrożnie, stapasz po marzeniach.

Sooo... if you hadn't noticed I got a DD For some of you it may seem a bit silly that I'm actually happy, but I am Nice to know that this kind of art which I represent is still interesting to some of you – this really gives me a kick
This DD was really a sweet gift, and I would like to thank *mshai - for suggesting it and for being such a great fellow artist and ^limnides - for featuring my work.
And of course I would like to thank all of you who commented and faved my work I'm totally not used to such amount of nice comments I should get the same amount of bad ones to keep the balance in the universe (you can skip the last one ).

So thanks a lot again! I hope I won't disappoint anyone who watched me today because of that DD

Karolina

I'm back ^^ and will be submitting some works... but not the recent ones yet some sweet stuff like butterflies and flowers and so on...
About the trip: it was great lots of drinking... I'm totally not used to this lol...
It was a really beautiful place, wild forests and a beautiful lake... the nearest village was a few kilometers away from the hotel and there was one shop where you could buy ice cream and beer :]The weather was amazing ^^ there were really beautiful sunsets and truly breathtaking, misty mornings.... as always I made thousands of photos ^^
Now back to the real world...

As always – thank you very much for all the messages! ^^ Will be responding to them in the nearest future...

Karolina